Template : Thursday, October 25, 2012 ? 0 Atashinchi ?
Recently I came across someone from my 'past'. And it made me think.
It is strange that when you are young, it doesn't register that some things that people say or do are called 'bullying'. Only when you grow up do you realise that back then you should have done something about it instead of suffering in silence.
I had the choice of going up to say hi. Maybe even ask if she remembers me. For a while I had the urge to do so, if just to confirm that she is indeed who I think she is. But I didn't.
A few years back I might have done that. A long time ago, I had done that with someone else. The fact that she did not remember was like adding insult to injury. But now I realise that there is no point reminding them of what they did in an attempt to evoke some kind of guilt in them. What happened was unimportant and unmemorable to them, even though it had made a big impact on my life.
So I turned away. Those experiences had contributed to who I am today, and in a way I should thank them, for helping me to grow and learn. And today I can finally stand up tall, no longer vulnerable to any of those attacks that had broken me down in the past.
I really like the scene in the MV where Taylor Swift pulls off the ropes tying her to the track. I believe that in these case, fundamentally there is no one else who can help you except yourself. To protect yourself, the change has to come from within. If you build yourself up strong enough inside in confidence and self-esteem, nothing that comes from outside can bring you down.
Some day, I'll be, living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Some day, I'll be, big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why'd you have to be so mean
And I am sorry for updating so seldomly haha. Thanks to all those who tagged, I am ashamed to say that I'm probably the most infrequent visitor to my blog that my tag replies are so incredibly lag!
