Friday night is laundry night. And as with last week I sat on a stool in the kitchen toilet scrubbing away at stuffz with my expensive manicured nails getting terribly in the way. :X They're a little chipped now but I don't really care since I'm removing the polish soon hahaha. Bye nice nails~

My mum very smartly soaked a dark pink pouch with a couple of white cloth bags in bleach. And now my giraffe bag is stained pink urgh. No amount of scrubbing with soap could remove the pinkness. Instead it made it worse by making the colour of my giraffe run. It must be a very sad giraffe now. :(

Today I opened a coconut for the first time in my life. I had all the knives in my house lined up before me and I tried all of them repeatedly. Took me nearly half an hour to finally chop it open. By then I was so tired that I could barely scrape the coconut flesh using a spoon zzz. Plus I cut myself and started bleeding scarily. And later on while washing stuff my hand started bleeding again. Scary much. :X Even more scary was how when chopping the coconut I was thinking about the Physics formula of Pressure = Force over Area. :P

Sigh I think I'm currently in some kind of depression or smthing. Been moping around these few days with no appetite and eating one meal a day. :/ I lost nearly 2kg over the past few days... And I don't feel like going out or seeing anyone zzz. Super touchy too and forever feeling like I'm offending other people. What happened to happy me?





想踮起脚尖找寻爱 远远的存在
我来不及 说声嗨 影子就从人海晕开

才踮起脚尖的期待 只怕被亏待
我够不着还 微笑忍耐
等你回过头来


If there's anything I've learnt, I'd say it's the importance of learning to stand on your own feet. No one can stand by you all the time, and you can't be over-reliant on your friends to pick you up every time you fall. In the darkest of night, you have to be your own light.

【没安全感的人10大特征】

1. 会爱音乐，非常非常爱；
2. 怕黑，却习惯晚睡；
3. 隐藏真正心事;
4. 喜欢有口袋的衣服，否则会不知道手放在哪里；
5. 习惯抱臂习惯冷战；
6. 会突然不知所措；
7. 喜欢窗户喜欢蜷缩；
8. 喜欢写字阅读；
9. 莫名的孤单，无法抗拒的恐惧感；
10.不爱说话或很爱说话。

一直以来用乐观和坚强撑起伪装，却早以漏洞百出。我抓得太紧，又太害怕被推开；我讨厌如此患得患失的自己。我宁愿用一座象牙塔把自己包围起来。若我不再惹人厌烦，是否便不会厌恶自己？我一直努力讨每个人的欢心，却弄得一团糟。我太骄傲，受不了冷淡和拒绝，可又讨厌自己因此而闷闷不乐。我曾经是快乐的。在我眼中，那是最完美的自己。而现在的我，离那个完美的自己太远、太远...

或许，我最大的不完美，便是无法接受自己的不完美。



















Tag replies:
^shinhuoy: let's play again next time :D
^sarah: don't i always cry in movies/shows hahaha (i didn't for puss in boots though!)
^yifei: haha you flatter me i'm not very intellectual lah! :P thanks for being such a loyal reader of my blog all these years I <333 you too :)
^wenyun: haha i can name some of the lamps in my life LOL

---

Thanks for reading :)

---

Older Post . Newer Post

Short Biodata

To be updated