Been getting back CT results these few days. Overall...not very good. But to some extent I'd say I was affected badly by nerves. Since the start of June hols I've been suffering from symptoms of stress, starting from when I was studying for SATs. For most of the holidays till now I've been plagued by different degrees of tension headache and loss of focus. In a way I think this is a more pressing problem than not studying. If I don't manage to overcome my nerves and perform up to usual standard in exams, what's the point of being well-prepared?

Though of course, no excuses for poor performance. 2 weeks was definitely not enough, I have to work harder and more consistently next time! And by preparing myself better maybe I won't feel so nervous anymore. It's a precious lesson learnt I guess. Barely 2 months to start of prelims! Gotta get in shape once and for all...

Was talking to sarah today and well, seems like many people are starting to lose their sanity cos of academic stress. I can feel myself going down that road too, and I've really got to get a grip on myself. It's hard, definitely, but I know I'll come out of it all a stronger person.

曾经很容易放下，但如今却不敢放下，只为了维持斗志。可代价就是，被自己给自己的压力压得透不过气。仿佛感觉自己开始有点像机器，喜怒哀乐都有些麻木了，我不喜欢这种感觉。真希望有人能向我丢一根救命的稻草，把我从旋涡里救起，可我内心知道，能救自己的，只有我自己。

你是自己最好的朋友，也是自己最大的敌人。

套一句话：置之死地而后生。藉此与君共勉。

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