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Thursday, April 7, 2011 ? 0 Atashinchi ?
Tired, tired, tired... Conked out badly last night which was a bad sign cos it means I'm over-stretching my health again.I love CO. I truly do. I really enjoy the music and I put in my best when I play. At times I am relaxed enough to make small talk and laugh. But a lot of the time I'm just so tired, even falling asleep on my pipa, sometimes forgetting to come in cos I just totally zoned out.
Desperate times call for desperate measures. I need better studying habits and time management.
CT results are starting to come back... I guess I'll wait till everything's back before posting about it though. In some ways my efforts paid off, in other ways my lack of effort got me what i deserved... I should be glad that so far I have not died extremely badly yet, but I shall reserve comment till everything is back.
Today felt rather refreshed after yesterday's long sleep. Shows that sleeping early DOES make a difference. I'll try to achieve more of that, meaning less MSN and slacking online. Though I guess not many people actually talk to me online anyway haha.
Went to the library today to do some work, and couldn't resist the urge to pick up a couple of books and flip through a bit. I really miss reading. Proper reading. Not those brainless chick lit or teenage romance novels that I have taken to reading to relieve stress. Not that recently I've had time to touch any of those even. I miss that surge of excitement when I walk into the library and spend hours looking at novels and reading late into the night, allowing myself to enter a world entirely different from reality.
But alas, now is not the time. The "end" is almost in sight. Though I dont know if there is ever an end. But one must always have hope, I'd rather deceive myself with the promise of the "end" than lose faith when I cannot afford to.
And I'm tired of drama. I just want to close my eyes and shut myself away from all the complicated things that are going on around me. I no longer have the energy to go through all that emotional trauma. Too tired to try anymore.
Silence, calm my harried heart.
Peace, embrace my troubled soul.
I will find the eye of the storm.
I will seek an ethereal goal.
Faith