Ahahahaha been away for super super long!!! It's weird that i seem to unable to find time to blog during the hols, when i supposedly have nothing to do. Or actually i think it's cos i sleep too much and became too lazy. :P

Well so we have entered the new year!!! Haha i shall TRY to make some new year resolutions and stuff and also TRY to keep to them oops. Hmm i guess i shall start with a brief reflection upon the past year.

1. I think i am becoming more matured. :) I bet you never knew that i secretly ask myself very philosophical questions (sometimes). More importantly there are some issues that i have been dealing with over the past few years that have FINALLY been starting to make sense to me now. Yep i have developed as a person and learnt more about myself and who i want to be.

2. I am growing more comfortable in my own skin. I suppose i am now in the later stages of puberty (as evidenced by my lack of growth in the height area) and some of the awkwardness that i used to feel has started to decrease (but has not yet disappeared). I am more clear about what i want and i regularly check upon my own mental state and i try to slow down whenever i find myself getting too stressed out. And i think that's really important. Cos i do tend to freak out a lot and i really don't want to end up in a mental institute before i even become an adult!

3. I have a better self esteem!!! Haha yes the above 2 points (which are quite interrelated actually) have contributed to this. I am more confident with interacting with others too. But most importantly is that i do actually feel much better about myself inside. I do still grapple with the many issues faced by teenage girls like body image, family issues, peer relationships, etc. but i regularly remind myself to always love myself for who i am, which also contributes to ensuring a healthy state of mind (ref point2).

Hmm so that is an overview of my personal growth in 2009. Of course there are other stuff like academics, CCA, and even leadership and EQ, etc. but i feel that the 3 (interrelated) things which i have listed are the most important to me. And now i shall list some things that i shall try to improve on in the new year. Or at least TRY to. Cos um haha i admit i'm not a very perservering kind of person! :P

1. BE MORE ORGANISED. I shall ATTEMPT to organise my life better. Ranging from actually perservering in putting my clothes in the right compartments in my wardrobe NEATLY and not dumping in everything anyhow (cos i am a either very-neat or very-messy kind of person), to actually writing down my homework in my homework diary (which i have yet to get. must remind myself to hurry go buy one. same for pencil case.) to prevent cases of FORGETTING HOMEWORK (which has occurred with alarming frequency over the past year). Shall also put up a board/patch of paper in my bedroom reminding myself of the things i need to do.

2. BE MORE HARDWORKING. I am managed to scrape through the past couple of years with a barely acceptable level of effort in terms of schoolwork. But for jc i actually NEED to work hard so definitely will have to buck up! JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU.

3. Try to fall asleep less in class. -_- This has been my resolution for eons. Nevertheless will continue working on it. Shall come up with a complex strategy shortly comprising of long-term plan, short-term plan, emergency plan, main plan, backup plan, step-by-step plan as well as troubleshooting.

4. Be happy. Duh. But me thinks it will be difficult considering the above three resolutions which will probably zap my body of energy that is required to remain high. Though on the other hand it is unlikely that i can fulfil all 3 above resolutions (or maybe even one. sigh.).

Ok that's all i can think of right now. I mean, there are things like keeping in touch with friends and making new friends and stuff that i'd like to do. But these are subject to environmental changes so i'd like to withhold judgement on said issues for the time being. "P

Hmm i am starting to sound weird. Which means i should end this post now before it gets weirder. So well bye!

Did i mention happy new year to everyone? Anyway, yeah, happy new year. Hope you have fun in year 2010 (whoever you are)! :D

Labels: 2010, new year

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