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Wednesday, November 18, 2009 ? 0 Atashinchi ?
Today was collecting testimonial day! Yay got a big paragraph about CO in my testimonial. :D Options report was so disappointing la. -_- Put in so much effort only get a single number. Least they could do is to write something like "good effort", "interesting ideas", or even "need to speak up more", "try to fall asleep less"... Grr and i dont think i deserve a 2 for english. But well it IS true that i NEVER speak up during class discussions... :P[edit: the following part is really long and full of ramblings so you might not want to read all. hehe. :P]
Been reading some stuff lately that made me think a bit about what i wanna do in the future. It isn't actually the first time that i've considered becoming a stay-at-home-mum in the future, but now i am more "informed" as well as more mature. And i am taking it rather seriously. I do intend to have kids in the future. And hopefully more than 1 too, cos i've spent the past 16 years being a lonely only child and i do yearn for a large family. A lot of my childhood memories are of me doing things on my own. :( But if i were to have many kids it would be hard for me to cope with a career AND family, esp when they are young. Hence the above consideration to give up a corporate career for my family.
But of course it gets boring being at home all the time. And itsn't really like you get to sleep in and slack the whole day cos you've got to run around after your kids. I know from experience that separation makes the heart grow fonder so i dont want to get "sick" of seeing my kids around. O.o Plus i DO want to have a career. I think i will enjoy working and i think it will definitely help to boost my self-esteem. I have brains (i think :P) and I do intend to put it to good use. Housework doesn't count. Even if you invent new recipes everyday and discover various effective ways to fold your clothes etc. I dont want to become a fat grumpy housewife who nags all day (or maybe i already do nag all day...) and doesn't bother to dress up. :O That's what my mum believes in too.
Hehe and i can only stay at home if i marry a rich husband who can support the whole family. And we will need to save save save. If i want to splurge a little on myself i'd feel really guilty. :( I realise that whenever a major exam rolls around there will be someone exclaiming on facebook that they'd rather marry someone rich and never mug like crazy anymore. Sadly that probably won't happen to 99% of us despite its high frequency of occurrence in romantic novels and the likes. -_- And I kind of think i have a potential to become an avid shopper and i do want to indulge once in a while. It's cool to feel like an independent woman and not have to depend on your husband to hand you allowance.
Haha i was just talking to tree today about us becoming entrepreneurs together!!! I think it's incredibly romantic to be wedding planners. :D And tree can specialise in pre-marriage counseling!!! No idea what celeste can do. She will probably give the couple a lecture on the atrocities of abortion. O.o And insist that their wedding theme be BLUE. Hahahaha!!!! Well but tree gave the counter-example of the female lead in 27 dresses. I havent watched the movie but i know the plot. Hehe. WAIT. Is the female lead the same as in The Ugly Truth??? Oh i want to watch the movie!!! Maybe next week can like watch online after my pipa exam. :D TREE!!!! Movie outing!!! Watch with me??? (I actually like romantic comedies. You get to laugh a lot. Cry erm like less. No violence/blood/scary stuff. And HAPPY ENDING!)
Though of course doing a business won't actually mean that you are more free. Cos it takes a lot of commitment. Maybe your time is more flexible but you may have to spend more time on it. Well...unless you start a business early such that by the time you start a family it would have stabilised! And you can employ other ppl to do the dirty work then you can be more free. Muahaha. :P I know that blogshops are all the rage now but I am not really interested cos 1. not tech-savvy cant even manage this blog properly 2. i dont even trust blogshops myself!!! Grr wish i can really do something fun with friends.
Sigh maybe i shouldn't think so far ahead. Better concentrate on jc first. Then uni. I think my dad REALLY wants me to become a lawyer. Esp since i have stated plainly that i am NOT interested in medicine. I guess i will end up taking law...if i can get in NUS Law... But as for career i am really not sure. Should i stick to the tried-and-tested like what i've been doing all my life? Only recently did i actually start knowing what is best for myself and daring to do what few others do. Eg jc subject combi. I guess it's a sign of my growing self-confidence (ahem). :D So maybe i WILL take a path less travelled after all.
Oh and tomorrow is FAM! The late nights that i've been having have resulted in a worsening acne situation (plus i kind of eat oreos and biscuits when i get hungry at night) so um hope it doesn't show too obviously tomorrow! I THINK i've got everything sorted out but tonight after coming back from pipa lesson gotta prepare everything properly. Like lay out the accessories and pack my handbag... Pick out the clothes to wear to cheryl's house tomorrow...take a nice shower and scrub myself extra-clean. :D Will sleep early tonight or else i'll fall asleep during dinner tomorrow. O.o
CO farewell is on fri!!! Just bought NEW and CUTE letterpad and stickers plus a nice pen. :D I've been quite economical in these purchases k. Letterpad was supposed to be 5.90 but i got it at 3.90 popular member's price!!! Not VERY nice but quite ok, esp for the price... 12 designs some more. (Luvs popular membership. $5 per year and great discounts! And you get the 20% voucher each month...when my mum comes back to singapore will grab her to go buy BOOKS maybe even popular book fair!!! Been eyeing some of them for quite some time already! *jumps up and down excitedly*)
BUT. i bought the stuff but havent written the notes yet. No idea how to find timne to write notes to the entire section (30 ppl besides me) plus some ppl from other sections... Thinking of not writing to sec4s...Really no time!!! (Yes i know it's my fault for procrastination! But really busy recently!) Gah wanted to type but now i already bought the letterpad gotta use it. :( GIVE ME STRENGTH TO STAY UP LATE AFTER FAM TO CHIONG LETTERS. Do you think they will forgive me if i give them late? Hehe. :P
[edit: OH GOSH I NEED TO FIND MY FAM TICKET!!!]
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