Template : a try-not-to-be emo post
Monday, July 20, 2009 ? 0 Atashinchi ?
Sooooo.....prac will resume next week. And we will be handing over. Well at least it will be more of a functional session rather than emotional stuff like farewell. And of course there are interesting things to look forward to prior to the actual handing over. :D But it's still kind of scary. Though strangely now that we are so near the end my stress level has been gradually decreasing (in terms of CO related stuff).Last week when I was sitting on the bus i suddenly thought of the CO storeroom key that I kept in my wallet and somehow I was compelled to take it out and examine it. And I felt a bit 不舍 at the thought of passing it on so soon. It's been with me for what seems like such a long time! Even in sec2 I held on to it for a period of time and it seemed like such a great responsibility then. Then I was staring at the key and marvelling at how after so many years it still looked exactly like what it looked like when I first held it a couple of years ago. And i dunno it was probably a symbol of something, and it felt weird to know that I am really going to be passing on my responsibilities and that from now on I will be a bystander rather than a participant.
So today I went back to the storeroom, perhaps for the last time when I am still a privileged holder of the magic key. I guess I wanted some time alone with the place that has been such a big part of my RGCO life for the past 4 years. Today it seemed weirdly empty, cos a lot of people brought instrus back to prac, and I kind of missed the crowdedness that everyone always complain about. I wouldn't get a chance to squeeze with everyone in that small area, try very hard to manouvre myself so that I can get my pipa out, collide with other people's instrus, get poked by the spokes of the cellos lying on the floor, search in the big box in the middle of the floor for workable 谱架s, perspiring like crazy cos the air is super stuffy, switching on the light using some poor soul's dizi... All the little things like running to far east during sectional lunch, carrying loads of stuff to and fro j-blk, carrying chairs over long distances and even up and down stairs, fooling around after prac and watching tienli and weiyi attempt to put up talent shows...these are what made my RGCO life so memorable and so hard to part with.
Well to go back to what I was doing in the storeroom, I kind of went in and looked around, took in the surroundings, found a packet of 中阮1弦s -_-, went to put them in the CD case :D, looked over the cupboard (which I helped to arrange after Open House :P), perspired a lot in the heat, and generally felt like hugging everything just that erm not possible to hug storeroom and cupboard plus quite dirty and h1n1 must practise social distancing!
Gosh I keep using ultra long sentences with lots of commars...haha kept seeing CO people around today. :) There are still some last-minute admin stuff to settle but I feel really happy doing it (as compared to the past when I always get annoyed with admin) and I don't even get annoyed when people forget to bring stuff etc. Maybe I am even glad for them to forget cos it gives me more time to put in my last bit of effort for the section and stuff. Haiz. (But erm if you are reading this and you are one of those forgetful people, please still hand in asap. :P)
Haha I am not emo in this post. Just a bit weird. It's ok I will save all the emo-ness for the real farewell at the end of term4. :) I guess will have to start writing notes/preparing presents after EYAs. Goodness knows how long it's gonna take to prepare for everyone. :O
On a sidenote, FAM is unexpectedly troublesome. Was getting so annoyed that I considered just not going to save the hassle. And it's not about what to wear either. I don't mind just randomly taking one of my dresses, old or new, and go in all my currently-in-my-possession stuff. I mean isn't it really about class bonding/batch bonding whatever and having fun with your friends for the last time when you are in RGS? It's not like you really have to dress up or anything. I don't get why people are hesitating whether or not to go. We may joke about it but friends won't force you to go if you really don't feel like going!
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