I know I kept saying that I wanted it to end. But secretly I knew that I didn't really want to let go. Then it actually ended (unexpectedly) and now I feel kind of hollow and a little um melancholy.

And so there it goes. I thought I have done all that I wanted to do. I thought I wanted to leave it at that. But now that I lost the chance so suddenly I realise that there are so many more things that I haven't done and won't ever get the chance to do again.

It's been slipping away, one thing at a time, but I always took it for granted that there would still be time. Alas my plans are disrupted, and I would never have the chance to do what I planned anymore.

All the planning. Excitement. Slight emo-ness... This is where it ends. No chance of going back. Maybe I would have acted differently. Maybe not.

But I guess I am leaving with (nearly) no regrets. Four years. It's been such a big part of my life. It hurts, a little, to let go. And now I know that I've always been 口是心非. It would be different from now on. I never really wanted to let go.

To RGCO, especially tanbo: I really love all of you people. Truly, from my heart. Thank you all for giving me and sharing with me so many precious memories. I don't know what to say except that all this is really important to me and I will carry it close to my heart.





And now I feel all teary.

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