haha i was deliberating whether to blog or not, seeing that i already posted on thurs so there isn't really much to talk about. but nevermind as you can see i have already made my decision. :)

hmm practically the only interesting thing that happened since i last posted was dazu on fri. It seems like it's been a long time since the last time I had no CES and could actually make it for fri prac at 2.30pm. (or rather my CES ended just nice at 2.30pm cos all the participants were from CO and we managed to hurry to prac about 5-10mins late.) Sadly liu ls was very upset cos we were supposed to be ready by then and yet we were all still tuning and blah. She started 一个一个来-ing for those in tanbo whom she didn't test last time or wanted to hear again. I got tested cos I had CES and missed it the last time, and I got told off cos my 弹挑 and 轮 were not at the right places...which was a bit upsetting but luckily only a small problem and well I guess it wasn't altogether my fault! Though I should have asked someone about the fingering after she changed it last week...sorry! Haha but i managed to kind of 改正错误 once I figured out what she wanted.

But dazu was kind of not very productive. Half of it was spent 一个一个来-ing, but luckily she let us go out of ks chee to prac when she is doing other sections. Except for the stuff that she was working on during dazu. I was very obviously falling asleep during the parts that she was concentrating on other instrus but that's ok cos she said we could do anything we want (including sleeping) when we were not playing just as long as we didn't make noise (and also provided that we wake up when it's our turn to play). I think we are progressing a little bit, but definitely not enough, and I still have very low confidence...

I realised that it is very important to me to feel that my efforts are recognised...cos the reason behind me emo-ing seems to be usually centred around stuff like that. And that's also why I always need to talk to people about how I am doing stuff and what I can improve on. I suppose that is a sign of low self-confidence. But I have come a long way from what I used to be before. Ok this is about as emo as I will allow myself to get on my blog. I don't really understand how people are comfortable with saying such emo stuff on their blogs...or maybe it's just me needing more privacy on more intimate feelings.

Tomorrow I am going for pipa lesson cos laoshi has generally recovered from her illness! i attempted to prac a bit today but well I guess it will be pretty obvious that I've been slacking. I just hope that she will overlook it or something... :)

This is a reasonably long post considering what little I have to talk about. I am still working on being more succinct with my blog posts and not be so long-winded!

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