Ok so yesterday they announced the results for co exco 2009. And i am tanbo sl next year, with yunan as my asl. C0ngrats to all the people who got into comm. And thanks to anyone and everyone who congratulated me, or would like to congratulate me.

But ok that is not really the main point of my post here. It was kind of for background info. Not that i am not sincere! But well it just doesnt feel very real. Just now when i tagged on yunan's blog and called her "my" asl it finally dawned on me that things are going to be different from now on. And I am kind of not very used to it yet. But i dont suppose i really have time to "get used" cos one year is really a very short time. I kind of cant believe that i have been asl for an entire year! And you know i was so amused that all the asls of 2008 became sls of 2009. Cos when they first introduced the asl thingy they told us very seriously that being asl doesnt mean that the next year you will be promoted to sl. But look what happened. Lol.

I have resolved to come up with a concept map and action plan. (Something like that.) Cos there are certain pressing issues to be addressed. I just hope that i will actually get down to doing it. Time never seems to be enough. But i am a bit uncertain about the "unknown future". I feels so weird to be going on to sec 4. And in co i am kind of the equivalent to sec 4 already. Goodness knows once next year starts the whole thing will be over in a whirl. And then i will be gone...gone...gone. Argh! I cannot believe that. And i really dont want to leave rgs and rgco and go on to rjc and maybe rjco. (Esp as when i met qianwen on fri she was going on about how guys are terrible. *shudder* Later i get bullied how?)

But well i guess i cant do anything about that. Nevermind i shall just try my best and leave it at that. I am far from perfect. And I will just have to live with it. Well maybe i can make a teeny bit of difference...or at least keep up the legacy of so many batches of seniors. I hope my juniors will at least remember my name...

I am kind of grateful that i do have a lot of batchmates and juniors who really care and i can 吐苦水to. (Note: not 吐口水) And they do help to give suggestions on how to help tanbo improve and stuff. I dont understand how dorcas does it with so few batchmates in tanbo. Or maybe she talks to willette and valerie? Yifei and i used to share our woes and whatnot, being in the same position. And i suppose we will do even more of that in the future. Jiayou yifei! Have more confidence in yourself! And to leevoon (if you read this): must support yifei and remind her that she is a great great batchmate and senior and will make a great sl! And two of you must be strong. Cannot cry or whatever or your very sensitive section will start crying together with you...Haha. Lol i hope tanbo wont do that either. But i think only a few tanbo people are actually prone to doing that. You know who...

Sigh ok shall stop here. I think today i am feeling a bit emo. But really when you feel that you cant cope you simply have to rely on your inner conscience and responsibility to carry you through until your passion shines out again, like i have done countless times this past year. And after everything has passed, you do end up feeling great after all.

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